Wallow Wednesdays IX

I spent a big time of this whole week binge-watching Kimura Takuya’s dramas. After watching Beautiful Life, I feel so guilty to watch another dramas ‘coz it seems like I’m wasting my precious time devoting myself of just watching dramas and not minding my personal issues in life. But I carelessly started watching Sora Kara Furu Ichioku No Hoshi and now I’m enchanted again. If I won’t stop, I might spend my whole year just watching Takuya’s dramas and movies.

I already knew the major plot twist in Sora Kara because of my interest in its Korean version. I found out that the Kdrama was just an adaptation and mindlessly read reviews (which contains massive spoilers) on both Japanese and Korean version. I won’t spoil the whole story because you really have to experience yourself the roller-coaster of emotions while watching this drama. Just a tip: if you plan on watching the jap version, it’s gonna be a helluva ride because it’s a story that is really heavy, sordid and dark. By the end of the last episode, I was dumbfounded and shocked with how the drama turned out. Because while I knew of the major plot twist (I won’t say.. I won’t say! ๐Ÿ˜‚), I did not knew that the outcome of the twist was so severe and detrimental to the lives of our main characters.

Since Sora Kara left me speechless and strucked, I knew I had to watch a different drama just to cleanse all these rigid emotions that was formed inside and so I decided to watch Hero. Yes. Another Kimura Takuya drama. Again.

The Kimutaku effect is real and I am thoroughly affected. I guess this lovely disease won’t get healed that soon.

/cue in bg music: Can You Keep A Secret?/

Oh boy. This song just grew in me; just like the effect La la love song had in me. That song stayed in my head for few days!

Talking about Hero, which was very popular in its time (aired in 2001 and all episodes reached a rating of 30%), was a fun show to watch. Although I want to ridicule its approach in the legal procedural parts of it, I had to remind myself that it’s an old drama and it might be those one of the first dramas to have tried this kind of genre. I’ve seen better crime/legal procedural dramas that left me flabbergasted each time (usually this dramas are suckers for cliffhangers!) but with Hero it’s a different case each episode and so each conflict was getting solved by the end of the episode. I don’t have a problem with it, though. It’s just that there were flaws I’ve seen as a result of wrapping up the cases in a fast manner. However, the strength of this show comes with the ensemble of prosecutors who were wonderfully portrayed by a stellar cast. Abe Hiroshi has a commanding presence on screen; KimuMatsu combo does not disappoint! I love that there’s a touch of romance between Amamiya and Kuryu! I’m still in love with this ensemble so I don’t think I’ll watch Hero S2 yet.

Just when I thought I’m done watching jdoramas, I found myself watching another drama of Takuya; this time it’s Good Luck!!. The main theme of this drama is the life in the aviation industry. So far, I am loving this drama and its budding romance between the two leads. I know that the main focus of this drama is about the people working in an airline but I just really want more screentime for the romance (it’s just me though). Romance genre + Kimura Takuya + lots of kisses = COUNT ME IN! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Life outside Jdoramas

Last time I mentioned I had some job interviews and I know it’s kind of stupid but I DID NOT go to any of the interviews. I just lost my confidence in myself and I feel like I can’t do anything. I know I’m slacking off and being so adamant about my life decisions but to be honest, everything’s starting to feel so halfhearted. Right now, I am numb in any pain or sorrow; I still can’t move emotionally and mentally. I felt like my life stopped and in the point of slowly accepting the fact that I’m defeated. That I’m just gonna stay here in the surface. That I am not bound to reach my dreams. I’m close to reaching the point wherein everything that I want for myself is the opposite of what the universe wants for me. And while I am having this foolish mindset, my life is slowly going in a way that could be describe as a loser.

All the things I need to accomplish just got halted. It seems like I don’t care about my future anymore.

I don’t know how to end this nonsensical entry of mine and I can’t continue writing my thoughts anymore so I’ll just end it with a quote from Hero Jdorama that hits my soft and damage heart:

Everybody sets out with the same set of ideals, but reality deals harshly with idealists. In the end, ideals are always out of reach.

I guess the point of this Wallow Wednesday entry is that, go watch a Kimura Takuya drama but get ready to be captivated and bewitched ‘coz once you started one, you’ll crave for more of him!! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

I see Kimura Takuya in pilot’s uniform, I watch! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

I can’t get enough of him, how to cure this?? ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‚

Okay.. Last one..

This time with Takako Matsu at the back because the KimuMatsu tandem is the one to beat, yo!

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Wallow Wednesdays VIII

If there is one object or channel I have always been honest with, it is in this blog. I never hid my struggles in here; in fact, writing here is slowly making my mind and body heal. I’ve been in a constant tussle of starting a brand new spectacle of this life, but there were days that it’s just really hard to get by. It’s hard for me to accept the fact that I’m fated to stay here โ€” in an unknown place I can’t name as well, and not there โ€” in a different unknown place with lots of grander possibilities.

Sometimes I would see these people, already achieved better things in life, and feel a surge of insecurity as they embarked their dream life โ€” grandiose places, bigger world to unravel and a whole new different trials to overcome in relation to their dream. I also dream of same things; but how come it’s hard for me to get there? Is it because at the back of my mind I still yearn for instant gratification? Is it because the best that I am exerting is not enough to achieve all of it? But what if it’s already fate that’s saying you, “not yet”. If it’s not yet, then when will it be? As Ariel sang in Little Mermaid, “When’s it my turn? Wouldn’t I love? Love to explore that shore up above. Out of the sea, wish I could be, Part of Your World.”

It’s so easy to say to a devastated person the lines, “Maybe it’s not yet the right time” or “Better things are in store for you” but to be honest, it’s just rubbing salt to the wound, and I am guilty of those actions as well. I’ve always stay in silence when a person, even close to mine, is struggling so hard. And even though I don’t mention it to them, at the back of my mind having the “faith mentality” will solve all those pain. Truth be told, it won’t change the circumstances of the person. And now, people are telling me to just hold on; but it’s hard. It’s hard to believe especially if everything’s just chaos and oblivion.

How do you even save yourself from all sorts of pain? The feeling of waking up in the morning and suddenly feeling the sorrow and defeat make my days so unbearable. There will be moments of lingering hope but suddenly will shatter once I realize the state that I’m still in. And maybe, cynical thoughts will quash once I come out of this situation. The question is: will I come out alive?

Japanese Dramas

As I am in the state of depression, I continuously indulge myself with doramas of Kimura Takuya. God, I just can’t stop talking about this actor. I have no plans of watching Beautiful Life anymore as I know the ending but my crazy impulse just found myself skimming every episode until I reached the end last night. And knowing the ending, it did not sort of leave a heavy impact to me. I believe that if I haven’t known how it ends, I’ll be in cryfest for days, atop with my emotional disaster. I am still controlling myself to watch Good Luck and Hero because I feel like I don’t deserve to have a drama marathon considering how messed up my life is and rewarding myself of the time to binge watch these dramas is a sin. I don’t deserve to squeal over dramas right now until I figure out an escape to the mess I’m in. And so, as much as I want to, let me pause my Takuya’s drama marathon for now until I got my shit together. I hope I can do this, though.

I am telling myself over and over again that consuming most of my time watching dramas is not making my emotional turmoil heal. I feel like I just need to make my time productive, even though I don’t know how.

Korean Dramas

I am in my ongoing watch of Touch your Heart and Romance is a Bonus Book, though I still haven’t watch this week’s episodes of the latter. I can’t help but compare the former with What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim, mostly because it has the same director and probably the drama is also based on manhwa (not sure with it though). Still, the show is feel-good and both main actors have this natural and explosive chemistry that you just want them to be together. I don’t have problems with the plot. As shallow or cliche it seems to be, I don’t care. I just want a fluffy drama to cover black spots in my chest.

Romance is a Bonus Book, on the other hand, is also a fluffy drama starring the fluff and cute that is Lee Jong Suk. Gosh, any drama with Lee Jong Suk in it is hypnotizing me to continue watching Kdramas. I love the conversations and dialogues presented in every episode especially towards the ending scene. I love the supporting characters. I love that they’re showing the struggles of publishing a book especially in an era where almost everything is digital. I love how it shows the different struggles of every character. I have soft spot with characters that are not shown to be perfect and have-it-all life.  Though I just don’t have the interest of watching the latest episode and I don’t know why. Okay. okay. I have to admit, I’m still in a Kimura Takuya drama hangover. Teehee.

I also had an interest with The Light in Your Eyes especially in the first two episodes. I can relate with the characters and how depressing their lives are, until the fantasy elements happened. It would’ve been a better drama for me if there’s no time jump that happened and the show just presented the struggles of the two main characters when it comes to their dreams and life as a whole plus the romance between them. Nam Joo Hyuk is slaying his character whereas Han Ji Min’s rocking hers. I must say their chemistry is palpable and I would love to see their journey both as couple and individual. The turnout of the succeeding episodes is personally not working for me and to be honest, I just want a simple slice-of-life drama that reflects my struggles too; no time jump. No fantasy.

Books

I’ve come to a fact that I haven’t read for a long period of time. The last book I read was To all the Boys I’ve Loved Before Trilogy and right after that, Life happened thus straying myself away from good books. Now, I just want to read again, preferably self-help books just so I can input some positivity in this pessimistic cloud circling in my head. I downloaded epub such as The Power of Now, How to Stop Worrying and Start Living, and Persuasion by Jane Austen to name a few. I hope my perspective will change as I read this books and that not only knowledge but also certainty fills my mind as I delve into this books.

Back to Reality

Aaahhhh.. The feeling of being alive but is wallowed by sorrow is both agonizing and tremendously scarring my system. Right now, I want to believe that greater things are in store for me and that I should start fresh. It’s still hard for me to accept the fact that I had to go through it the hard way and that time and luck is never in my side all this time.

I want to start afresh and live with no expectations. No more dreaming big. But at the other side of spectrum, I want to push myself to the limits. I want to try harder and live farther in spite of suicidal thoughts (this is not alarming so dont worry. Im not brave enough to kill myself. lol).

I hope this time the Law of Attraction applies to me and I just attract the finer things in life and blind my sight to see others’ achievements. We all have our struggles, with some having achieved their dreams in life but is continually surviving in a grueling world, while others still trying to find their place in the world. I am not yet in a total healing as I still have thoughts of envy and jealousy towards others who have their shit together. But someday, I hope I can change the course of my life, without Someone telling me to do this and that; because the holy betrayal penetrates so deep I don’t think it’s gonna heal in a short period of time.

 

Japanese Actor: Kimura Takuya

This is the first time I will write a blog entry dedicated solely to an actor. Even though I found out actors (mostly Hallyu stars) that is worthy of fangirling, it never gotten to the point I have to write their awesomeness and their brilliance as an actor. And so I wondered to myself, why and how did it got to this point when it comes to Kimura Takuya?

Yes, yes. I am super late with this KimuTaku syndrome. He is a Japanese icon and every drama he is in always received a massive high ratings in Japan. A few information about him:

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  • Name:ย Takuya Kimura
  • Japanese:ย ๆœจๆ‘ๆ‹“ๅ“‰ (ใใ‚€ใ‚‰ ใŸใใ‚„)
  • Birthdate:ย November 13, 1972
  • Birthplace:ย Chiba City,ย Chibaย Prefecture, Japan
  • Height:ย 176.5 cm
  • Blood Type:O

Notes

  1. Former member of J-pop group “SMAP”

(source: asianwiki.com)

Holy wow! I am stanning a 46-year old ahjussi and I am liking it!! There is really something about in him that just stands out everytime I watched him in J-doramas. I’ve only seen him in three dramas and so far I was able to endure the drama experience in spite of it being old, in plot and in style, because he really exudes charisma that feels so good and giddy. I always search about him everyday about his latest news, his popularity in Japan, even his scandal or controversy. I would love to see more of him through variety shows but I can’t find a lot and if there is, there’s no english subtitle (poor me!).

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He really was at his peak in 90s and early 2000s, and I’m quite frustrated that I wasn’t able to witness him during those times. I’m just three years old when Long Vacation aired and the frenzy during 2000s in our country was a different Asian drama so I hardly know him back then.

I came across his name while searching for the Jdorama version of Hundred Million Stars Falling from the Skyย because of its Korean remake. He is the leading man but since I don’t have interest in him yet, I did not even bother watching that drama.

Dramas

On as to why I got to know him, it is because of Long Vacation which I totally love and I also made a post about it! I love all the cast in that drama that I searched everyone’s name, their age and how they are now in the industry; but it is with Kimura Takuya I truly stayed. Maybe because he has a lot of popular and iconic dramas under his name and with the few blog entries and write-ups I read about him, every show is actually a delight and worthy of watching.

Don’t get me wrong though, because I’ve only watched him in three dramas so far but look where it got me now! I am so enthralled and I’m craving for more!! ๐Ÿ˜€

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Now, let me talk about him through the dramas that I’ve watched. Maybe I’m just being biased because I’ve only seen him in romance but he truly shone in that genre. And what fascinates me is that, his character is really fresh because I’m quite used with a leading man being either a chaebol, doctor or a prosecutor. In Long Vacation, he is a piano instructor (which upon my search, due to its popularity that time, most of the males actually took up piano because of that drama). In Pride, his 2nd drama that I watched, he is an ice hockey player. And in Love Generation, he is an ordinary salaryman.

Again, don’t get me wrong. I love Korean dramas and will always be. I am also aware that good K-dramas doesn’t always have a chaebol nor a lawyer leading man. I would just like to point out that Takuya-san has different characters, based on the dramas of him that I’ve watched, which is actually fresh in my eyes.

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I already talked about why I love Long Vacation. I also love him in Pride because he really owns his character, Halu. I also love the romance between him and Aki that my heart is leaping of joy because of their chemistry. Can I just mentioned the ending scene of episode 6!? That is one scorching heat and I love every detail of that scene! Too bad that the succeeding episodes was full of angst that I found myself fast forwarding just for the scenes of Halu and Aki. Next drama that I watched was Love Generation which aired a year after Long Vacation and reunited him with Takako Matsu, this time as his love interest. I so love Takako Matsu in here! Her character is very far from his character in Long Vacation. I am close to giving up watching this drama because I am not a fan of 1.) the leading lady falling in love first with the leading man, and 2) love triangle with the second lady running back with the leading man. Okay, enough of too much explanation. ๐Ÿ˜€ However, I still managed to finish the series, with lots of fast-forwarding because I just love to see Takuya on screen.

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Okay, that was it. I LOVE WATCHING KIMURA TAKUYA on screen, especially in his younger years. THE MAN IS TRULY HANDSOME! His long hair and his expressive eyes, plus his different expressions of fascination, love and anguish in his character. Wow, he really looks good on screen and I am obviously enchanted.

He is the only Japanese actor that I can actually say, wow, he’s really handsome even before I got to watch his drama. I have this prejudice when it comes to Japanese actors wherein I opt not to watch the drama if I don’t find the actor handsome or if I don’t see him in a previous Jdorama.

I was able to watch those dramas because of Kimura Takuya even though it’s not of my interest and some conflicts, plots or character development was a meehย . He made these dramas full of impact in my part because of his presence and chemistry with the female lead.

I am also planning to watch more of his dramas but foolish me for accidentally reading the ending of Beautiful Life! I feel like watching that drama with me knowing how it ends will just make it less impactful. Then in Sora Kara, I also knew the major plot twist because of searching it in the past. I am interested to watch Hero because it had high ratings and his role is a prosecutor but I feel like at this point in my life I should not devote my time in watching Asian dramas all day (quoting Minami “What am I doing with my life? I played panchiko all day.” with me replacing it with, “What am I doing with my life? I am just watching Takuya Jdoramas all day.” LOL — this is, of course, a different and personal story already. :D), and also with the fact that I like watching Takuya in a romance drama. Some would say he always play the same characters but I actually disagree. I see Sena, Halu and Teppei as all different persons with different struggles and personality. I am actually curious now how much of his characters are based in his character in real life. Imagine, a popular actor playing as an ordinary man. That in itself is already considered as a wonder and amazing.

Fangirl heart solely for Takuya-san

Sometimes I am forgetting that he is not in his 20s or 30s anymore that everytime I am searching for his images, I can already see him aging (but in a good way) and feel so sad ‘coz I wasn’t able to be part of idolizing him in his peak (wait, I’ve mentioned this already. HAHA!)

I am not sure where this entry will lead me but I just really want to write the awesomeness and love with this actor. I hardly come across with an actor that will made me watch some of his dramasย  and still want to see more of him, even just in variety shows.

Some blogs about him and his dramas are also a delight to read ‘coz even though it was in the past already I was able to know a glimpse of him during those time and the depth and height of his popularity.

I’m not sure on when this fangirl inside of me will last long but certainly, Kimura Takuya is now a part of my Asian drama memories as I grow old and one day decided to take a trip down the memory lane. The oldness of his dramas doesn’t diminish the fact that all of those were bearable to watch because of him.

Oh my, oh my. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!! I know this is slightly absurd but I hope to see him again in a romance drama, with a mature content and a character that match his age of course. It’s possible, right?!!

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His gaze in this picture, I AM MELTING!!!!

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EEEHHHHHHHHH… LOVE HIM!!!!! /hearts all over the air/

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Omo.. omo.. So adorable and hot!!!! Help!! I’m drowning with his charisma and sex appeal!! lol

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Still oozing with sex appeal in spite of age!

I would love to add more pictures but I really need to stop myself! All pictures are found in google and I give the credit to its rightful owners.

Now, please excuse me, I have to fangirl more of Kimura Takuya!!

Inner self: Baka! Go out and work!! ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

 

Japanese Drama: Long Vacation

I was a bum for two months now and I am losing every ounce of hope I managed to muster for a time. And in rough times like this, I always drown myself in series that I can relate to; a series that will make me feel alive even for a short while. Guess what, I found it in a 23 year-old drama.

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I am actually remembering how I came across with this drama considering it’s a really old drama. It aired 1996 and Kimura Takuya’s youthfulness in here makes me even harder to resist.

Okay. I give up. I really can’t remember how I found out this drama. My initial impression upon watching the first episode is nostalgia. The resolution of the video itself will make you know that it’s an old drama. The scene started with a lady in a traditional japanese gown running on the streets of Japan, seemingly hurried, worried and pissed of for an unknown reason that is yet to be revealed. Later, we found out that she went to an apartment looking for her supposedly husband because their wedding is on that day and few minutes before the ceremony starts, her husband doesn’t arrive yet. What she saw is a different, confused man, not sure what was happening as he just woke up by a loud knock on the door. And this, my folks, is where the riot and blooming love starts.

Our main gal is Hayama Minami, a 31-year old woman who was left off by her fiance before their wedding ceremony starts. She is a model but after the incident, and because of her age as well, she is struggling to get new gigs as a model. She’s broke because she invest most of her money for the wedding and for her fiance. She decided to live in her fiance’s old apartment together with his roommate, Sena Hidetoshi.ย  Sena is a 24-year old piano instructor for kids who aims to won in a big piano competition. His life begins to changed when Minami started living in his apartment.

My most favorite scene in this drama is at the end of Episode 2, where Sena explains to Minami that they are in a long vacation which is also the title of this drama. He said that amidst the struggles they are in right now, better things are coming even if they won’t do anything. That they are in a long vacation and soon it will end; something new will arise.

WOW. Those words got sucked into my heart as if I am the one being comforted by Sena and not Minami. I am always engaged in a drama that speaks to the very depth of my soul and I feel like Long Vacation reflects the season of my life right now. I see myself in some parts of Minami or Sena or even in the supporting characters. Everyone is struggling; everyone wants to be in the light. Here’s the conversation of Sena and Minami in the ending scene of Episode 2, which resonates in me:

Sena: There’s no spotlight on the supporting role. The cameras don’t even go after the supporting role. What rigid rules.

Minami: The movie?

Sena: No, life.

Minami: When will it be my turn? What am I doing? I played panchiko all day.

Sena: Why don’t you think of it this way? It’s a long vacation.ย 

Minami: Long Vacation?

Sena: There’s no reason to rush. There are times where no matter what you do, it doesn’t work out. No matter what you do, it’s no good. At times like that, it may sound strange but.. Why don’t you think it’s a vacation from God? Don’t force yourself. Don’t rush. Don’t try hard. Just let everything to take is natural course.ย 

Minami: Then?

Sena:ย  Things will improve.

Minami: Really?

Sena: Probably…

Minami: Probably…

I felt the comfort and ease on a very personal level. I empathize with the characters, knowing the pain, worry and frustration that feels like a domino effect. The feeling that no matter how hard you try, nothing good is coming out of the situation. Maybe that’s why I can relate – because I am currently experiencing it right now. Somehow, this words of Sena gave me hope. It gave me an assurance that soon everything will fall in its proper place; and that I just have to believe that things will improve, no matter how blurry it seems in the present.

This is the series that mirrors mine; and I am happy I stumbled upon this drama.

Romance

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If we talk about their individual characters, both actors managed to make their roles come to life. Tomoko Yamaguchi as the badass, sassy lady Minami is a character I hoped I could be in the future. Sure, she has flaws but I saw growth in her throughout the course of the drama. She’s a strong, free-spirited woman but with emotional baggages too.

I liked how meek, cool and reserved Sena is which is also wonderfully portrayed by Kimura Takuya. You could say I am hypnotized by the “Kimutaku Charm”. I don’t usually watch jdramas but his charisma on-screen is really evident.

I like their rapport as a couple, and their chemistry both as their characters and actors sizzle on-screen. I like that even though this is an old drama, it’s not a statue kissing. Overall, I can’t say anything bad with their romance. Everything is fast-paced, there are no unnecessary scenes or heavy conflicts. They also have nice rapport with the supporting characters.

More than the romance, I am merely drawn with their journey while they are on long vacation. I feel sad when Sena decided to give up playing piano because nothing good is coming out of it. I also like it when he went back to his passion because there is one person who believes in him and wants to hear him playing piano. Of course, that person is Minami.

There are areas of this drama that might seem cliche already because we can see a lot of this used in romcom dramas. But to be honest, I don’t have problems with it. I still found this drama light, enjoyable and feel-good. Something you can watch whatever emotions you’re in – whether happy or lonely.

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I would highly recommend this jdorama. If you could see pass its oldness then you are in for a good ride. I am actually writing an entry about this drama because it’s been eating me up for days now. I am just so addicted. When I wake up, I would remember the characters. In my idle moments, I would see some scenes in my mind. Whenever I feel like this way in the dramas that I watched, I just have the need to write about it so I can release the love I have for the drama. And for me to go through my life as well, I have to let go and realized that I’m not living in their world. I have my own and I have to deal with it too. Wow, that’s a severe post-withdrawal symptom I got there.

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And so this is it.ย As hard as it may seem, Show, I have to let go of you now. You will always have a place in my heart. The impact you made in my drama-watching is so severe but in a good way. Someday, I would also like to experience seeing the end of this long vacation that I’m in right now. Yes, I am in a long vacation; and soon, everything will be alright. Everything will be good again.

Oh, did I also mentioned how La la la love song plays in my mind the entire time? ๐Ÿ™‚

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