Wallow Wednesdays V

Here I am again, with a tinge of hope sparkling as new days lies ahead. I’ve been wanting to  experience life to the fullest because for the last years I kept on controlling myself to achieve new heights, to discover that there are things that is worth celebrating and achieving even thought the world is full of mess. I hope this sense of urgency to live and love life won’t die any soon, because whenever I have this great feeling I always end up being down and weary on the following weeks.

Come fast, November, because I am willing to try another cabin crew recruitment at this local airline. I feel like this is the reason why I live, and every situation and knowledge that I have right now is because this is what I ought to do. I am born to serve while flying around to different places. I am born to be in the different parts of the world and discover more about culture and life than staying in the four corners of my room. I am born to be free, to be the captain of my own ship, to determine my happiness and to love myself. I am at my peak. I am discovering and unraveling more of myself better.

I realized that I don’t need anyone to be my friend. I don’t need the approval of everyone. Slowly I am on my way of not giving a fuck of what everyone thinks of me. I am a certified people-pleaser and I don’t want to form arguments and fights with anyone or everyone. I am almost there. Just few more steps and hurdles; a little bit of practice then and there. Surely, I’m gonna master it.

I feel like I’m into taking the ladder of making my career successful. Right now, I’m not into focusing myself on finding a lover unlike other people in my age. If there will be, then fine but if there’s none, then it’s better as well. I don’t wanna rely my happiness to anyone. I want to be a whole person and I’m not yet ready to give half of it to someone else.

Books

I seriously want to read a book right now. I’m eyeing to read The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman but I can’t buy a copy because I’m broke. It seems like I just want to read Neil Gaiman’s novels  for now. I have a huge respect to this writer. Though I have to admit, American Gods wasn’t the right Neil Gaiman book for me. Nevertheless, I still felt its heart and soul. I felt emotions. And that’s what I like whenever I read a book or even watch series. More than the actions and the gripping scenes, more than its cinematography (which is a big plus point, still), I am more attracted to the story and how it builds up towards the end. I love seeing different characters and discovering their similarities with mine. I love finding out that we have the same dilemma and I love how they conquer everything that conflict throws away.

For some reason, more than the travelling stuff, I want to be more incline with arts now like watching a film and a theater play. I’ve been looking for someone for so many years to just engage in a very meaningful conversation and just talked about our thoughts when it comes to those film and plays we’ve watched. I’m gonna be lucky if that person watch K-dramas as well. Haha! I want to have someone like girlfriday of Dramabeans and just talked about it over some drinks. More than the satisfaction and entertaining factor, I want to talk about the story, characters and even plot holes. I want to talk about what was really good and what went wrong, its upside and downside. I just badly want someone whom I can talk with when it comes to this stuff ‘coz I’m really a fan of these type of art and entertainment.

New Perspective

Let me discover the good things in life one step at a time. Let me discover its rotten and ugly side too. Let me feel. Let me be happy and angry and sad. Let me hope. Let it spark alive. Let me live.

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Wallow Wednesdays III

Nothing’s new in my life.

That’s why I opt not to write an entry last Wednesday. It’s been the same, old routine.

Same people. Same circumstances.

I don’t even know what to write for this week’s entry. I know no one’s forcing me to do this but I felt like I just need to let out these emotions and thoughts in my mind no matter how nonsensical it is.

Where do I start? Hmmm.. I stay true to my word; I stopped watching a lot of K-dramas. However, I’m currently watching Father is Strange right now. It’s my first time to watch a family weekend drama with 52 episodes. The drama is ongoing right now and it’s in episode 42 as of now. I’m in episode 22 and the show keeps getting better. I love that the whole siblings are having their own spotlight with their respective lives. Hye Young is my most favorite character! She just embodies the modern woman. Independent and classy. She doesn’t need any man to get what she wants. She knows how to fight for herself and for the people she loves. She’s successful and rational as well. Aahhhh.. I hope to be like her, to be honest.

I’m also enjoying Mi Young’s and Joong Hee’s blossoming friendship. I think the romance won’t be in full circle soon but I’ll just enjoy this subtle ride with the two characters until it lasts.

Overall, this is the kind of light drama that I need. It’s kind of impossible that the characters are connected with each other but I love how they addressed each problems that can possibly happen in real life. And for that, my heart is full and I’m all in with the shenanigans of this strange family.

Looks like I won’t be able to watch this theater play I’ve been eyeing for a month now. Ticket is just expensive and as always, I’m broke. Aside from that, I don’t have someone to watch with me. It sucks, but I need to prioritize what’s important.

I don’t really want to write about this “thing” so I won’t go into specifics. ‘Coz I think if I write everything about it, I’m admitting to myself that there is really something to worry about. I’m trying my best not to jump into that cliff and save myself so that I won’t get hurt. I just hate the fact that this person can see right through me and know what’s in my mind or how I live my life even though I’m not telling much. This person is not the right person to break my walls. I know I’ve been waiting for someone to unravel the different layers of my personality but that person can’t definitely be that someone. It’s just so complicated. I don’t want my heart to be swayed easily ‘coz this won’t definitely go anywhere. I know that my feelings won’t be reciprocated. So I just have to stop this. This is just a phase. This will be over soon.

I rarely talked about love life ‘coz I don’t have any. Ha ha! To be honest, I want to feel romance. I want to feel how it is to be loved and adored by someone. I want to feel butterflies in my stomach. However, I don’t think I can love someone. Just thinking about someone who’ll barge in my life makes me worrisome already. I’m just confusing. I want to feel the thrill of someone slowly knowing everything about me but at the same time I don’t want him to change the ways that I’ve been used to all my life. I’m just complicated. Sometimes it frustrates me too.

With that being said, I feel like I don’t have the right to be happy. I’m scared to feel happiness. Maybe it’s because I’ve never felt happiness in such a long time that whenever I’m slowly feeling it, my system can’t accept it. I don’t deserve to be joyful. I’m scared that if I’ll experience that genuine and deep happiness, a circumstance will just take it away from me. Come to think of it, I’ve never felt inner peace in such a long period of time. I’m always scared and worried. It’s hard for me to think and pursue what I want for the future ‘coz someone will take it away from me. I’m scared to discover new heights alone because I know it will be taken from me or because I don’t deserve it.

I don’t deserve to feel genuine happiness. I don’t deserve to have a decent and successful life. I don’t deserved to be loved. I don’t deserve to live my life to the fullest. Every positivity will always lead me to think of negativity. There is always a “but” in every hope.

Sadness is swallowing my system again.

This will be forever part of my life.

 

Wallow Wednesdays II

I rarely cry.

I cry whenever I watch a relatable scene in a drama that I’m watching or if I am sso much immersed in a novel that I’m reading. But crying because of life issues? That is really rare to happen.

If life keeps on frustrating me, I just want to cry it all but unfortunately no tears were coming out. It’s hard for me to cry. I don’t cry easily.

Last night was one of those few moments wherein I just burst it all out and cry nonstop.

This week wasn’t a good week. Funny how I’ve shown positivity on my last week’s post but ended up getting disappointed and frustrated at myself, even at life.

First, I didn’t attend the cabin crew recruitment. Major reason was I’m just so lazy about going in the venue. I’m living in the countryside and I’m on a vacation from work but I’m just so tired to work on CV and outfits for the recruitment. In other words, I don’t have motivation. To be honest, I’m not sure if I still want this job badly. I feel like the only reason I wanted this is because I’m fit for this job, or I don’t have anything that I’m good at and my physical appearance fits the role of a cabin crew (as anyone will always tell me). So I taught, that maybe, this is the job that I can do. The problem is that I don’t have the motivation to go out there, let these recruiters scrutinize me from head to toe and decide if they’ll accept me or not. I want the easiest way to get the job. I don’t want to suffer anymore and accept rejections all the time. I’ve been trying for four times already and even in the first round, which is the physical test, I can’t even pass.

Yeah, yeah. The reason is because I don’t have confidence and I do not believe in myself. Maybe I have to badly want this first so that I’ll do anything just to get it. The funny thing was that, in my height of badly wanting to be a cabin crew, whenever I go to a recruitment, when I’m already standing in front of everyone, the confidence that I’ve mustered and collected just vanished in an instant.

I’m having second thoughts about this career. I’m just feeling demotivated especially with what’s haunting in my life right now. I am being haunted by the past. I just want to normally live this life and be like everyone else. Why do I have to be reminded by that stupid prophecy all the time? What’s even worse is that I’m letting it affect my whole system and just feeling like a scaredy cat!

Going back, now I’m planning to go to that airline company and have a walk-in interview because I’ve neglected going in their cabin crew recruitment twice. I even go on a vacation leave just for the recruitment but I’m always not going. But then, all are just plans; there’s no action and execution. I’ll plan to go and be hopeful but if that day comes every positive attitude is gone in an instant to the point that I won’t just go anymore.

Second, maybe this is just a hormonal issue and I might have my period on the following days. This is just a hunch but my emotions are becoming so magnify when I’m nearing that time of the month. So if I’m feeling agitated or frustrated or extremely sad, that’s my signal that I’ll be having my period already. I think this could be one of the reasons of this sudden change of mood ‘coz I am extremely hopeful and dreamy last week and now, it’s all gone.

Third, I’m having family issues that I can’t even (or I chose not to) let out in my system. I can’t/don’t even want to talk nor write about this. It’s a very sensitive topic and I just want to think that nothing serious is happening but I’m aware that it’s been going on for years now.

I’m depressed and I just don’t want to live anymore. I don’t want to die; I want to sleep forever. I want to be numb and I don’t want to have emotions. I even wish I have amnesia just so I can remove all these memories and start with a clean slate. I suddenly remember the premise of Circle. If removing memories will help cure people then be it. Now I want my memories to be remove minus the Human B having a copy of my memory! I don’t want to be in this pain and agony all my life.

This is how I am broken right now.

On to the good stuff….

After this I’ll be watching the last four episodes of Lookout. I just hope all will be well with our Lookout squad and just please let that bitch attorney’s son suffer. I loathe him the most out of all the villains. If he doesn’t have an ounce of resentment with what he’s done, he doesn’t deserve forgiveness. It’s the same with Seung Ro.

I’ll just watch the last two episodes of Suspicious Partner as well (I think it’ll end this week) and then I might hibernate in the world of K-dramas. I don’t know. This season I’ve watched a lot of ongoing dramas (four dramas are a lot for me) and I feel like I just need to take a break. I’ve lost my interest with Fight my Way and still not in the mood to watch the last four episodes. I’m gonna focus my time finishing American Gods (w/c I wasn’t even able to hold this whole week!) or watch/rewatch Ji Chang Wook’s dramas after his enlistment. My Wookie side of heart is slowly dying. 😭😭 He’ll be gone for two years! How will I handle that?!

BUT!

If there is a drama that piques my interest, then I might watch it. My competitive side doesn’t want to lose to those Kdrama watchers (esp the new ones) since K-dramas are quite a hit now and everyone watches and I don’t want to be left behind. I think that’s the reason why I watch almost all ongoing dramas right now. However, I’m not tailored for that kind of drama watching. From now on, I’ll go back to what I always do in watching Kdramas. I’ll watch what I think is good and enjoyable and stick to it; no need to force myself to watch a drama just because it’s popular and everyone’s raving about it.

Getting ready for this week

I’m still feeling hallow and tired about everything. I don’t even want to go to work tomorrow. Just thinking about it is making me feel dreadful. So I’m not gonna expect something positive to happen ‘coz the last time I did that nothing good happens. So I won’t be expectant and make every tomorrow surprise me of what’s gonna happen.

Hey, that’s a good mantra right now, isn’t it?

 

Loving K-dramas: First K-drama

Disclaimer: I found a new outlet to release my seemingly infinite love with Korean Dramas. I guess this phenomenon will always remain in my heart until the end. I got all the ideas in a 30-day challenge I found in tumblr. However,  I won’t be able to update everyday so I’ll just do it whenever I got time.

So, here it is!

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I’ve discovered K-drama at a young age since local channels aired a lot of dubbed korean dramas back then and most of it became a hit (eg. Full House, Lovers in Paris, Endless Love, Stairway to Heaven, etc.). I remembered binge-watching Lovers in Paris together with my older sister who’ve bought an original DVD copy. At that time, I just want to be with my sister who was just home once a week. But upon watching the episodes, I grew fond of the story line and got interested with the plot and its trajectory. I was quite satisfied watching it though I was never really captured to the point of addiction. I guess Lovers in Paris might be considered as the first ever Korean drama (not dubbed) that I’ve watched.

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But if you’re gonna talk about my first-ever Korean drama that catapulted to my love for it, I’m gonna say Boys Over Flowers started it all.

(I was quite contemplating if it was My Girl or Boys Over Flowers but I’ll just have to stick with Boys Over Flowers)

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I consider Hana Yori Dango, the original manga which is written by Yoko Kamio, as a huge success. It had three different adaptations and an anime as well. It was one of the original story line who tweaked a Cinderella story and make it a modern-tale classic of a damsel-in-distress and a prince falling in love with each other. What and how was the twist made? The prince is handsome and rich but an ultimate jerk who doesn’t care if he hurt other people as long as he can unleash the sorrow and anger he’s feeling inside. The damsel-in-distress was really not a damsel-in-distress for she knows how to fight back and has the sense of justice to defend herself and others especially if they are being trampled on just because of their social status in life. The hero is feeling empty, but thank God for he have real friends who are there for him and can understand his arrogance and childish demeanor. And did I mention? The other three friends are all handsome and rich as well with their own issues in life. Thus, a phenomenon group was born. Who doesn’t know F4, right?

The Japanese adaptation was my personal favorite out of all adaptations. But Boys Over Flowers was the reason I slowly jumped from Jdoramas to K-dramas without even realizing it. I did had a high expectations with Boys Over Flowers since the first two adaptations were highly successful. I enjoyed the characters’ journey of this version but I guess I will have a lifelong issue with the actress who portrayed Geum Jan Di.

All F4 members are oozing with sex appeal and Lee Min Ho was my first ever Korean husband. Tee hee. He was the first actor I fell in love with, and got obsessed with, so I am thankful that this version cast Lee Min Ho as the korean Domyouji.

Boys Over Flowers was like a hole that I jumped in and landed me to more Korean dramas that I never really thought I’m gonna enjoy. It was even more fascinating to dig through all the dramas because of friends who are as addicted as me and even recommended me the good ones.

A hobby that started eight years ago is still fully alive and kicking. And even though K-dramas have changed over time, with noble idiocy and truck of doom and amnesia as a popular conflict to keep the drama going, I will always be enchanted on how overused plots can always create an addiction to all the drama viewers. Another thing is that drama gods never lacked with what’s to offer as new plots are being presented to a growing Kdrama fandom. Hello there, time-travel, aliens, sci-fi, action, mystery, hero that can hear people’s thoughts and even the future!

Cheers to more of what K-drama has to offer! Cheers to more Oppas that dramas will offer! So for those who are as in love as me when it comes to dramas, cheers for more noble idiocy and other cliches that might ensue as we get farther and deeper to what K-dramas has instilled to its addicted viewers!

 

 

 

 

Wallow Wednesdays I

I started this day binge-watching episodes of Korean drama’s Lookout. I was still awake at 12am, in front of my laptop, feeling all sorts of emotions on what’s happening with the heroine and the gang. I just have to stopped around 3am because I really need to sleep. It’s dawn already and if I’ll continue, I might even see the sun rise.

Having still awake at midnight, I sorta did a salubong of Ji Chang Wook’s birthday. He’s 30 by now and set to enlist in the army after his ongoing drama, Suspicious Partner. He’s my oppa that I’m currently obssessed with; he’s even my wallpaper! I happened to watch some Running Man episodes yesterday with him as one of the guests, and, oh boy, he’s just so freaking adorkable! Park Bong Soo is real!

I woke up with the news that Song Joong Ki and Song Hye Kyo announced their marriage this October! I have to checked some sites to know if it’s legit, and it really is! There were speculations even before about them dating but I can’t believe it’s really true! Congratulations, SongSong couple! Now, I have this desire to rewatch Descendants of the Sun again!

Speaking of K-dramas, I just finished Circle: Two Worlds Connected last Monday (I also slept late because I have to finished it!) and it was superb! Too bad the drama is underrated. It doesn’t reach their expected ratings of 3%. Yeo Jin Gu is such a delight to watch! What a brilliant actor. And I’m also having a girl crush to the actress who portrayed Byul/Han Jung Yeon. Her acting delivery as Byul (alien) is just both creepy and lovely to watch. I love how the show did not left its core – love. It’s the driving force of everyone. The brother’s love for each other stays until the end of the episode. From the BETA project up to the Brave New World, they did not stop looking for each other because of love. They want Human B to end because they know that it’s better to keep the memories, even agonizing, than having no memories at all. I’m proud with Le Ho Soo’s redeeming moment. He just pissed me of big time during the former episodes. It’s good that he realizes his mistake at the end and help our team to find Woo-Jin. My favorite character is Lee Hyun Suk. If you read some former entry, I empathize characters like Hyun Suk. He’s will to live ended him to join the bad force. He’s too coward to leave Human B even though he knows it’s wrong. I feel you, bro. I feel you.

I’m dying to find some answers on who really Byul is and where she came from but they use that mystery as their ending to make viewers be more curious. Arrrggghhh, show. Why? Are you hinting a Season 2?

I think I have to stop talking about Circle by now. I shoulda make a separate post about it. Tee hee. But if you’re a lover of Kdramas, you have to watch this. It’s a rare gem in Kdramaland, I tell you!

Book

I’ve been dividing my little time binge-watching dramas and reading a new book, American Gods by Neil Gaiman. I’ve always feel like I’m in an adventure whenever I read Gaiman’s novels. I’m not yet in the mid-half of the novel but it’s slowly unraveling the mystery of the gods. I’m sort of knowing and understanding who’s Mr. Wednesday. I’m slowly falling in love with the book. I will always be amazed with Neil Gaiman’s writing style and the richness of his imaginations to come up with this kind of stories.

Other stuff

I’m financially unstable right now. It’s my fault for being this way. In my quest to enjoy this life, I’ve been indulging too much to expensive delight such as theater plays, which is such an expensive hobby. I have a lot of expenses lately but my salary is not cooperating. I realized that if you want to enjoy life greatly, you must have money! And a lots of it.

Work and Life

I’m having an utter delight with these korean kids at work. They’re four siblings – oppa, unni and an identical twin sisters. They’re all so adorable! I’ve been wanting to develop a relationship with these kids so whenever I got the chance I talk to them a lot. I find out that Twin A doesn’t want to go with unnie and Twin B. The way the story was told to me was just so kyeopta!

During the first quarter of the year, I’m dreading to go to work. That was the worst so far. I know I’m not that fond with work anymore but those months I was just really dragging my way to work. Add on the emotional turmoil of the events surrounding my life. However, things just went on 360 degrees. Work became my stress-reliever now. There’s still that lingering feeling of not going to work but once I’m there, I don’t feel the passing of time. I like talking to kids and knowing a little about them. Maybe part of the reason is I started liking the activities assigned to our team. Then there were the “korean kids” who are very cute and adorable. Work became a safe haven.

I’ll be trying another cabin crew recruitment this Saturday and I’m feeling nervous and lazy at the same time. I should give it a try. I let go of the opportunity last May that cause me to lurk around and be tired of everything. I never really know why I wanted this job so bad. Yeah, it was a promise. A part of the past. But it’s different now. I’m no longer the girl in the past. I’m a brand new person today yet I still want it. Well, not as much as before but I feel like I belong to that career. I feel like that job is for me. A lot of people are telling me that I look like a cabin crew and pushing me to try it but it’s not as easy as it seems. Being a cabin crew is like going through a needle. It’s not just about the looks but on how people see me. It’s about my personality. It’s about myself and how I interact with people. I realized that first impression lasts.

Having said that, I’m just glad that I am getting to know myself better. My flaws and all that. It’s just the middle of the year but 2017 is proving me that this is not my best year. There were lots of things that happened, personal and national. I’m just scared of everything. I’m scared of the future, of the decisions I chose. Sometimes this is the reason why I’m tired to live this life dilligently. Hope will fire up only for it to die down once I remember those dreading events. What’s the use of living the life if it will only lead to destruction? What’s the use of dreaming if it will only end?

I hope that there will be good news at the end of the week. I hope to live even if it’s hard. I hope to dream even if there’s still no light at the end of the tunnel. I hope to pursue grander things in life. I hope to find a different purpose. I hope. Hope. Even it’s just merely a word, but the intensity of the meaning, will always lead me to survive eagerly. ‘Coz this is what Life is all about. You pass through the calm waves only to find a storm. And once the storm is over, you rest in the serenity of the waves only for it to get bigger again until you meet another raging storm. Yes, life is a cycle. It’s a never-ending journey through the unknown.

And while I’m in it, might as well fight the raging storm and indulge through the calm waves. As the song say, let’s just dance through life.

 

PS. I have a lot of errands to do but I’m just so tired to get up. Geez. This laziness is consuming me.

Korean Dramas: First Impression

I’m getting more and more hyped up with all these Kdramas airing right now. So, I just want to add my two cents on the dramas that I’m currently watching and these might help you find your drama to-watch as well.

 

Circle: Two Worlds Connected – Thrilling. Unpredictable. Gripping. Always keeping me at the edge of my seat. This show is one of my favorites among the ongoing dramas that I’m watching. I am not a fan of sci-fi or dystopian genre but the plot and the way this show presents its story to the viewers is what’s keeping me hook. I am as both enthralled with the two different worlds and I just badly want to know how things happened that led to the present/Brave New World Era. This Kdrama is a sci-fi but I love that there is still a touch of humanity in the storyline. Is losing memory, both the bad and good ones, the only way for the people to have a safe and peaceful lives?

Fight my Way – I’m still thinking if I am liking this show, but the premise of “bestfriends turning into lovers” is the reason why I’m watching it. The two leads’ chemistry is undeniable and I always love their banters and how they truly care with each other. I’m not yet interested with Dong Man’s taekwando arc yet I’m loving Ae Ra’s arc re: Announcer dream. For me, the magic of this show is the characters’ having normal lives, experiencing dilemmas that are realistic and relatable. So yeah, I’ll keep on watching it.

Lookout – I am quite frustrated with all the injustice but I am loving chemistry of the squad. The lead woman is a badass, but sometimes I don’t like how she acts rashly because of emotions. I love Bo Mi’s arc, which is the focus of the show right now. I am quite intrigue with the leader, and if you’re a viewer you probably know by now. I love how the actor (forgots his name, silly me) shifts from being playful, to edgy, to being mysterious. Will he really be loyal to the squad, or just plainly using them for revenge?

Suspicious Partner – My drama crack. Such a Ji Chang Wook fest. Ji Chang Wook. Ji Chang Wook. Ji Chang Wook. I am not buying most of the comedic antics but the romance is just captivating. The mystery/thriller side is not fully on the loop but I’m interested as well. I am quite afraid that something will go wrong with the characters. The murderer is just so creepy. I’m on the ride for the romance.. and the bromance. And oh, please, can someone shut off Yoo Jung and her hoobae? They’re pissing me off.

I’m planning to watch Duel and The Best Hit next. Oh geez. I just hope I can manage to watch all of them. All four ongoing dramas are just oh so good and now I can’t let them go.

Now, who says I need sleep? Bring it on!

Korean Drama: Healer

Let me start off by saying that Healer is my no.1 favorite Korean drama of all time. It has all the spices that I wanted: action, romance, a little bit of a thriller and politics. It built their own world that really works for me. Maybe the reason I love it, aside from the romance, is that the main characters are too idealistic. In the real world it will be very hard to sustain that idealism and you really have to face hard battles just to get the justice that we wanted, but Healer shows us that being idealistic can probably be the key to teach those bad people a lesson that this world doesn’t just revolve around them. I love how the writer incorporated two different era, the past and the present, to make a plot that is really interesting.

Of course, the romance is a plus factor on why I like it. The kisses, and the hug. OMG! I am smiling and squealing like an idiot whenever I watched those scenes! They were very generous in giving us lovey-dovey scenes and it’s not just the statue type of kissing. (You know what I mean by that. hihi) Ji Chang Wook and Park Min Young have a really great chemistry! This drama introduced me to Ji Chang Wook and that’s another reason to love it!

The ending gave me an impression that this whole show just gave me a glimpse of their world. Of how everything started. Of their first ever battle. And that ending is just the end of that part of their lives. Now in the present, in an alternate universe, there’s still Young Shin and Jeong Hoo, probably still reporters. They might be married now but still fighting off a different bad guy now (still a part of the “farmers”) with Moon Ho and the rest of the Some Day team. I think they are still madly in love with each other!

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The first time I watched this drama was March of 2015 and after two years, I decided to re-watch it again. Oh boy, it feels like watching it again for the first time. The scenes just never get too old for me. The plot and the conflict still works and even though I know what will happen already, I am still left in awe and amazed after they solved each problem and the plan they thought of in each situation (The Park Cheong Dol case/tape still amazes me).

I’ve never felt this in love and addicted in a Korean drama. Dramas come and go. Some will make a lasting impression but Healer made me felt more than a lasting impression. It leave a mark in my life. It gave me a sense of hope. It made me believe in the impossible. It told me that there is a true and lasting love. I am inspired with the characters. They are just like real human, flaws and all that. But even though they made mistakes, they can still do something remarkable. They can still love people. They can still forgive.

I am always saying this. The last time I felt this intensity of love for Asian dramas is Hana Yori Dango. Healer, for me, is not just a Kdrama. It’s my sensational Korean drama. Yes, it’s underrated in Korea. It doesn’t have that skyrocketing ratings. But I’m happy that while its run, international viewers really gave the love with this drama. I’m happy that in a small corner of the internet, there were people who rave and gave their thumbs up. I’m glad that people appreciates this drama.

Healer, you’ll always be my all time favorite Korean drama. Nothing beats you.

And for the third time, I have to face this post-withdrawal symptom again. I have to leave your world, and face mine. I hope you’re real (might sound delusional). But I really hope, that in some part of the world, there are people who have the same guts and bravery as you, ready to fight for democracy and justice, not swaying with what the world can offer. Just there, ready to fight and do anything for all those he loves.

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PS. not edited and proofread so sorry for the typos and wrong grammar. 😀

Korean Drama: Jealousy Incarnate

Disclaimer: Listening to Jealousy Incarnate’s OST while writing this.

I hereby claim that this drama is now officially included in my TOP 5 favorite K-dramas of all time. It hits all the humor and poignant aspects that I rarely found in a drama. I actually started watching this show as soon as it airs in Korea (last November 2016). I planned to watched it every week together with my other ongoing K-dramas. But then I was fully consumed with a different drama that I felt the need to drop it and focused on the other one. I was also getting bored in the first few episodes which led me not to watch it at that time. However, drama gods really has it way to let me watch this brilliant and wacky drama and so last week, I decided to binge-watch it. I started at 1st episode even though I’ve watched it already just to refresh me of the premise of the show. It has the same feeling. I felt like this show is not the right drama for me but there’s something in it that keeps pushing me to watch it. And as I progressed in each episode, I GOT HOOKED. Deeply-rooted hooked.

I’ve always loved how Gong Hyo Jin act this kind of characters. ‘Coz I feel like on paper these characters are dumb and stupid. It’s her magic to transform this silly character into something likable. She has the same character in The Best Love and Master’s Sun which I both love as well. I think that’s one of the reason why I gave this drama a chance. I like Gong Hyo Jin and find her acting superb. But then Jo Jung Seok and his brilliant comedic timing and acting chops comes in… and now I’m completely sold.

This is the best rom-com korean drama I’ve watched in such a long time. It raised my expectations and now I want other rom-com to be as good and brilliant as this show. I am not a fan of too much love triangle and jealousy but I am soooo looking forward with Lee Hwa Shin’s reaction everytime he gets jealous. Some sad and heartbreaking scenes became so funny and hilarious but when they really made some as sorrowful, it really is sad that I get my eyes bawled out because of too much crying (cue in: Lee Hwa Shin’s impotency scene).

Another reason why I love this drama is because of the chemistry between Pyo Na Ri and Lee Hwa Shin which is perfectly acted by Jo Jung Seok and Gong Hyo Jin. They are the heart of the show. I knew Jo Jung Seok because of the other dramas (that I don’t get to watch) and this is my first time really seeing him act and, oh boy, I now have a high respect with this oppa. He owns Lee Hwa Shin’s character and made me root for him to be happy until the end. Even though he is a jerk, arrogant and self-centered, I still want him to be with the girl until the end. It’s all because of Jo Jung Seok’s performance. When he is doing the comedic antics, he is sooo good and when he does the dramatic part, he is so good as well. He is such a surprise here and I never thought that he acts so brilliantly well.

I am honestly not that much interested with the side characters but they also gave some good LOL moments so I think it’s fine as well. The romance here is what makes me ride all along until the end. Thinking about all the actions that led to the love triangle and jealousy is cringey but it was so well-executed and became humorous that it became a very important aspect of the show.

I guess there is really a different feel between binge-watching a completed K-drama and having to wait each week for a new episode of an ongoing K-drama to watch. They are giving a different level of post-withdrawal symptom that I can’t really explain specifically. And that’s what I’m feeling now with Jealousy Incarnate. I am having a seriously post-withdrawal symptom. Same feeling that I got after I finished Healer (w/c is my TOP 1 fave K-drama of all time).

Thank you drama gods for not letting me slip this awesome show. Thank you drama gods for introducing Jo Jung Suk and his brilliant acting. Thank you.

Off to watch clips of Jealousy Incarnate!

Korean Drama: Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

This drama started as an underdog drama. Having been on a same timeslot with the most anticipating comeback drama of Lee Min Ho and Jeon Ji Hyun, Legend of the Blue Sea. However, in its long run it became a Hallyu sensation that tugs everyone’s heart and make it duguem duguem.

The simplicity of the plot is its beauty. College student Bok Joo who is an aspiring weightlifter falls in love for the first time. It shows how a young lady fluorished that simple crush and did unimaginable ways just to see his crush. Asking him if he likes Messi (This had been a trend in our country), up to being a patient on his clinic, telling things that she likes it even if it’s not just to look good to his crush. Who doesn’t relate to that!?

Another beauty this show has is its friendship. Bok Joo is lucky to have two faithful friends who will support her in all endeavors, who will be there for her in times of laughter and crisis. Friends who will cry with you, be fat with you and be happy with you. I adore these trios! Their friendship is full of SWEEEEEG!!

And of course, everyone loved this show because of the lead guy! Boyfriend goals to be honest! Not only he’s been there for Bok Joo in times of trouble, he’s been a great supporter as well! He prioritizes Bok Joo’s happiness above all, not being a hindrance to the goal Bok Joo wants for her life. He respects her in all her decisions and loved her for who she is and for what she looks like.

There are lots of cute banters and sweetness with our OTP. And I’m glad each of the character have given spotlight and let us have a glimpse of what their life is as well. I love each and everyone’s character growth and I love that they all have a happy ending!  I feel like they’ve shown us their lives as a youth. How they were able to survive those youth problems that we’re all familiar with. How it feels like to be in love for the first time and how it feels to be with them afar and having to built a new relationships in an unfamiliar and new place.

What started as an underdog drama is now so popular internationally. And I believe that this drama deserved the popularity that it’s gaining right now. This drama shows us nothing but love and growth. It shows us that being a youth is beautiful. They let us understand that being a youth is something that everyone must cherished as a part of our lives. No matter how awkward it gave us sometimes. There are still memories that can be looked back on as we age and reach the adulthood.

Kudos to the team for giving life to this incredible show!